Falling In Love Again

I've haven't advised or treated a patient for over a year. Recently, my husband has been pestering me to start working. Sabi niya kinakalawang na daw ako. Ayaw niyang masayang yung mga pinag-aralan ko. When we have medical discussions, there are times when I have to take a moment before I understand what he says and I'd think, ooooh I'm in deep trouble. Insecurities have taken root.

Eventually, hubby's pestering worked and both of us were scheduled for a 24-hour ER duty in St. Martin's Maternal and Pediatric Hospital in Cavite last Saturday. I tried to pump milk 3 days beforehand but to my dismay, I was only able to get 6oz. This was only good enough for 1 to 2 feedings. And he usually goes on a hunger strike when I leave him and only his milk formula is available. Malakas lang loob kong iwan siya kasi kumakain na ng ibang pagkain. Kaya lang hindi pala sapat etong lakas ng loob ko...

On the day that we were about to leave, I nursed him for the last time. And I couldn't stop the tears. Ang hirap! Especially since he developed a cold. Kung puwede lang umatras e aatras ako. Nakakahiya mang aminin e umiiyak pa din ako habang bumibiyahe kami sa Aurora Boulevard. Hindi naman hagulgol, tumutulo lang naman luha ko.

Eventually, the tears stopped. When we got to the hospital, hubby toured me around (siya kasi ang affiliated sa hospital na yun). And when we started working, JT was pushed to the back of my mind.

For the first several hours, hubby took most of the work. He gave me time to adjust to my surroundings and also from being apart from JT for the longest period ever. Eventually, I started noticing things, like how quick and efficient he works, how clearly he explains every detail to his patients, how he puts them at ease, and just how darned smart he was. This was the first time we've worked side by side and I was thrilled to see him in action. This was a new side of him and I love it! Let me just say that I feel smug and satisfied with the man I married.

With his help, I slowly regained confidence. By the following day I was confident enough to let him leave me alone to manage patients. I can't wait for the next time!

As for JT, well, apparently he didn't miss us. We left him with my mama and she said that he was very cooperative, didn't give her any trouble, and hardly cried at all. When we came back, it was as if we haven't left.